Notes from an almost-empty-nester
“Do you still love me”, he asks.
“Yes son, I
love you with a no ‘conditions apply‘ clause.
We stand in an impasse.. Both angry, both frustrated, both determined.
Suddenly I feel something cold sloshing on my hand. She takes my palm. W.A. T. E. R. She writes with her finger. Water.. That cold thing on my hand is ‘water’. ‘Water’ I repeat in my head tentatively.. Water – that deliciously cool thing sloshing on my hand is water. And I’ve learnt a word.. Water. Jubilant, thrilled, excited I run to the ground thumping it with my hand. My teacher takes my hand gently and writes G.R.O.U.N.D. Ground. Another word! Then another and another and another. I am delirious with joy running around, feeling things, making her write them out, trying them out in my head, tasting them on my tongue… I am alive, finally. I am part of this world after all.
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| A scene from the film The Miracle Worker on Helen Keller’s life |
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Note: That is an imaginary recreation of an interaction between Helen Keller and her teacher Anne Sullivan – two of the bravest, most inspiring women ever. For days Ann had been struggling to make Helen relate objects with words and failing. She asked for both of them to be left alone in a cottage where she continued her struggle with Helen. Finally, that day she made a breakthrough. Helen learnt 30 new words by the time the day was through and never looked back.
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“Bye papa”, said she valiantly trying to control her tears.
“Bye beta. We’ll call,” said her dad releasing her reluctantly from his hug.
She watched him leave with a sinking feeling. ‘Why oh why did I come here!’, she wondered trying to dig out a sliver of enthusiasm that had carried her all the way from her small sleepy hometown to big bad Mumbai. She had job offers back home but she had wanted to test new waters, to work where her writing would speak for itself. How sure of herself had she been. How arrogant!
And look where she’d landed — in an alien land, alone.
She walked back to her room and sat down by the solitary window that overlooked the road. The hostel was silent with the eerie silence of a place normally bustling with activity. She wished she had come on a weekend when the other girls were around.
Other girls! What would they be like? Would they accept her? ‘Will I ever fit in?…’ she wondered, ‘..in this lonely desert full of people?’ The melancholy threatened to overpower her. ‘This is what you wanted,’ she reminded herself sternly, giving herself a quick mental shake.
‘I should unpack,’ she thought, before the melancholy could turn into a full blown panic attack.
She pulled at one of the cartons with uncharacteristic impatience. It fell apart and her books spilled out in a heap. She remembered how she and her sister had bickered about the ones she should bring with her. ‘That one’s my favourite.’ ‘No, you can’t take that one either, you gave it to me’.. ‘..this one’s only mine’. How difficult it had been to segregate shared possessions.
Idly she flipped open a book. ‘This book belongs to me (and not to my sister)‘ she’d written on the first page. A smile tugged at her lips as she hugged it, inhaling its scent. Ah the smell of old books! The smell of home.
She reached out for another one. ‘May life never leave you disgruntled. May you always remain gruntled’. This, from a Wodehouse fan. Her smile widened. The smell of laughter!
Then a third one — ‘May the magic never end,’ said the Harry Potter and was followed by a list of names that spilled onto the next page. Her entire class had pooled in to get her the set. This one smelt of friendship.
Smiling now, she reached out eagerly for another one and almost laughed. ‘Here’s your copy now may I have mine back?‘ it said. She remembered how she’d shamelessly clung to this one wanting to read it over and over till her friend had gifted her a copy. The smell of shared love.
And then another — ‘To the most fantastic Singleton, from all of us Smug Marrieds’. She remembered this one so well – a gift from her senior colleagues when she’d wrapped up her summer internship. She’d spent the month running a hundred meaningless errands. All the while she’d plied them with her articles hoping, yet never believing they’d even read them, till one day she’d seen her byline. Her first ever! Ah the smell of hope and acceptance and love.
Gently, she picked up the books returning them to the carton. No longer was she lonely. She was home with the smell of her books.
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| N and her friends trying out ‘hairstyles’ |
Linking to Thursday Challenge: ATTRACTIVE (Clothes, Hairstyles, Flowers)
To my extreme regret we never truly cherished those tiny cheerful chirpy beings. We would climb up to the terrace to look at their nests and we’d watch the babies learn to fly. We’d watch them fight (oh they were noisy) and cuddle and hop around fearlessly. Yet, they were so much a part of our lives they were barely a reason for much excitement.
Last year (2012) I came across the Citizen Sparrow project launched by the Bombay Natural History Society. The project invited citizens from all over India to document the presence or absence of sparrows in their area. The findings reported a decline in the sparrow population all over the country. To know more about the project click here. Worse still Google tells me the bird is disappearing all over the world, significantly in Britain and across Europe.
If you’re wondering why we should do our bit to save the sparrow read this excerpt from an interview I found at Rediff…
If you would like to do your bit and adopt a sparrow nest box click here.
Picture Courtesy: Pixabay
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